Gosh. This was so relatable having had several of my own issues with my body and food. I was my heaviest when I was in my last relationship….super toxic and stressful. I also had the most health issues unrelated to weight. I think back to that time and realize that although emotional eating is demonized, it did provide me a lot of comfort during that time, and until I had the stamina to use different coping skills. I’ve also been malnourished, yet attractive in the eyes of others. The positive reinforcement from others only kept me in my eating disorder longer, even though—like you—I was not healthy at my smallest. My mind was suffering and the restriction I was putting my body through made it suffer too. After being on both ends of the spectrum, I’ve realized we all have a set point and I’m at mine. I have curves and cellulite, but I take care of my body through nourishing foods and occasional exercise. The best part is, my way of living still allows room for treating myself and enjoying life. That’s what is most important and I’m happy you found that too. Great article.