Maybe; maybe not. It's sometimes said that those in larger bodies have greater bone strength and bone mineral density from more mechanical loading and adipose tissue/ estrogens in the body. Of course I don't know what exactly was happening with your knees, but something I thought to mention. I'm 27 and thin, and it's likely I'll need a knee replacement before I'm 35. All bodies struggle and I hope you take it easy on yourself for having experienced unexpected changes. It can be so challenging to develop healthy habits when you didn't grow up being taught them.

Sigh. All I can say is this was a really moving piece, Ruby. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to share it.