You wrote this with such strength, vulnerability, and grace. I hope it helped you just as much as it's bound to help those who read it. Accepting the help you need can be hard, but I love when we do hard things and get to experience the positive effects of those hard things later. I can imagine being hospitalized would have put you in touch with many more incredible souls. I'm glad that experience got you back on the right track and your family was waiting to support you however they best could after.